'cuz i'm being taken over the fear

yes. i'm being taken over the fear?
and what's my fear?
i don't really know what it is actually. i mean, specifically.
but i'm sure two of my fear has took over me.

well,

1. i will lose a very good friend
2. the dark side inside of me will come out
3. loving to curse people
4. got influence by bad things which i shouldn't
5. the teenagers "usual" problems is now my problem too.
   

and oh. it's just not two. it seems like more. oh no. something wrong is happening to me. and i'm afraid of it. i can see that number 1 and 2 can happen, anytime, in my life. but, i don't want it to happen. i need some professional help. oh please oh please. i don't want to crush the people who lived around me's heart. they all are too nice to be crushed.

i just write this out because i need help. and i don't want to keep it in my heart. it will my heart so heavy and my fear will overcome me. anyway, thank you for reading.